A Future That Belongs

One day we will meet again

In a future we forgot

I’ll see your eyes anew

And remember what I’d lost

I’ll see that smile for the first time second

and be reminded of loose ends that we were supposed to knot

Seven years will flash before me, of a life that now seems meaningless

I could have skipped it all, but it wouldn’t be as

seemingness,

As letting time make me ignorant

To the love we could have found

Forcing regret to make amends

and now that it’s here

I think I’ve woken up again

Now that I’ve caught you here

And you me

as part of life’s grand acts

There is no place we’d rather be

It feels almost too obvious

The destiny that led us here

is greater than amnesia

even when it displaces fear

But more so, is made abundant by a certain future that I hear rumbling in my chest

itching to ooze from my throat

I feel my life is ending today, after 26 long years

And continuing where it should have began

I can see it in you

In the crescent of your grin, and a patience in your words

That you have found the end yourself

Your smile suffices as words

But when they come

they make it across effortlessly

They’re softer to those around us but to us, the clearest sentences we’ve heard in years

There’s no rush, and we linger with our stares

Enough to let each other know

That we’ve always been there

maybe not in presence

but our existence here says enough

Two souls intertwined by destiny and ambivalent to time

We both know

It won’t be much longer

maybe a moment, maybe a gust

Before I can call you mine,

once again

And make every single amend we thought to make

In the 6 years we left in our wake

but it doesn’t matter now

because we realize today

there was no rush

in the first place

a gust

a look that displaces lust

burgeoning intimate trust

I know one day — soon — i will tell her — i must —

That long ago, I knew my life could be characterized by two parts: the before and after You

But now that I’ve met you twice

There’s two befores that lead to you

Now that I’ve found what I lost

I’m not scared of this path

I know that I want this After

To be our last

C.R